Let me blog about what I’m feeling right now. Right now, as in right this minute, I feel like my heart is going to come out of my chest. It’s thumping so hard, real hard, and I don’t know why. Okay, so maybe I know what’s causing it but I don’t know why it’s thumping real hard. Is this what Ron feels whenever he has palpitations? Anyway, it doesn’t feel so good. No, nu-uh.
Recent turn of events had left me asking many questions. About life, about the things that are happening, you know, purpose-driven-life stuff. This phase is so hard. Okay, so maybe I’m getting a lot vague, it’s just that I can’t put to words what I’m feeling or thinking right now.
What I know is, I want classes to end. More than being able to rest from academics, I want to free my schedule to squeeze in more important things. I want to free my schedule na!!! Please, stop academics. Stop stop stop. Ayoko na talaga mag-aral.
Is it worth it?
Is it worth what we’re doing?
Even though I know we’ll part ways soon
I still plunge out into the deep
I still make memories with you
I still make memories we could cry upon later
And when we cry, later we laugh because we cry
And then again we make new memories
Each one sweeter than the other
Each one harder to let go than the former
Each one brings more pain when the time comes…
Of your departure
If only days like these could go on…
But I know it won’t
It never will
And that’s what hurts
Because I know I’d be hurt spending more time with you
But I can’t seem to stop myself
From making use of the little time that we have together
If only I could always be by your side
And never leave for home
I’d do it. Yes, I will.
I’ll never leave you…
Even if I know you’ll leave me…
I don’t know how I could thank you enough
My whole life isn’t enough
But remember this, and never forget
That what I am now, it’s all because of YOU
If not for you, I wouldn’t be in this place
If not for you, I wouldn’t be anywhere
If not for you, I wouldn’t… I couldn’t…
If not for you.