“Behind the sun’s rays looms a dark cloud overhead…”

I don’t know how to begin with this. Apparently, I’m experiencing manic depression lately. Ups and downs and rollercoaster as an analogy is a bit of an understatement. I keep on texting people to pray for me because I have a problem but I remain vague to them. I can’t tell them what my problem is because I myself can’t explain moreso understand what’s happening to me.

What’s certain, though, is that I’m depressed. Whenever I’m alone, my heart feels heavy and I feel like crying. Which is so not me.

But the loneliness doesn’t show. It’s a complicated thing, but I guess the depression attacks vigorously when I’m alone. For old time’s sake, I always get my enthusiasm from other people. I’m like Rogue of X-Men, my power is using other people’s power.

“And now I stand on a fork road…”

There are so many things that make me depressed. They’re so many I can’t even begin to think of them. What I know is, I get depressed everytime I try to think of it. The goodbyes to be said, the decisions to be done, the conflicts to be resolved. All brings forth a drastic change.

I always ask God to make me understand what I’m going through. I, myself, can’t comprehend what I’m feeling. Everything’s so vague. And until I get a clear understanding of what this is, I can’t begin to remedy or prevent things from happening.

The feeling is very consuming. It’s gloomy, like the heavens for the past couple of days. Whatever’s happening, I hope something good comes out of it. As it always does.

8 Responses to “Christ is”
  1. Anonymous says:

    try looking somewhere else. it might be a symptom of something else.

    hehehe, here i go again, making things more vague 🙂


  2. Odin says:

    just passing by, i understand what you are experiencing now. im going through it also, sometimes you have to go let it all out and try to do things that might help you forget about being sad or depressed

    btw nice blog!

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