DBTC’s fair and St. John Bosco’s feast day is next week already. I can’t say I don’t have mixed feelings about it. The thought of going back to my High School makes me cringe — and all’s not because I don’t like High School that much, it’s just that… there are far worse things that makes me don’t wanna go back there.
But I had to. It’s been 4 months since I last set foot on that ramp in the Millenium Gate. It’s been 4 effin months since I last saw Ma’am Ria, who I miss terribly. It’s been 4 freakin’ months since I last saw Don Bosco’s golden statue near the lobby. It’s been 4 goddamn months, and still I’m a little bit afraid to cut the 4 months short.
But, a risk is a risk, and going to the place that has once been my comfort zone scares me to eternity. I’ve changed, for the last 10 months. I don’t know what Bosconian values I still have with me, and that makes me hesitant because I don’t think I’m worthy of setting foot on such hollowed ground once again. Memories will come flashing back, I know. So many regrets. Too much regrets. And the people I will see will most certainly make an impact to me today. Sigh… it’s a risk I gotta take, and I gotta take it now before it’s too late.
Haha… this entry’s so vague. I guess I’m just a little bit too emotional about this whole thing when I really shouldn’t be. I guess those close to me know why I’m reacting this way. Just the thought of it makes my body freeze, and my heart throb harder. Sigh…
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